Billy Quizboy pronz. I am not interested.
You know you ever find porn of something you really genuinely love as a turn-off? Maybe it’s solely VB stuff, but most of the time if it has to do with my childhood or something I’m a huge fan of, I can’t stand any smutty art of it. I make the occasional exception for really good (and in-character!) pieces, but for the most part it just makes me cringe.
This was all sparked by this video by the way.
I feel like most people in the world, or America at least, are too literal with things. Or at least, too rooted in the physical world and reality. I mean, I am, too, I tend to be very practical, but I don’t exactly feel bound by anything when it comes to the way I feel about things. I think what I do because that’s the conclusion I reached, not because I was told to or that’s just “the way things are.”
That’s kind of why though I’d never call myself a lesbian or bisexual, I can honestly say I do find the female form attractive, but not necessarily because it’s the “female” form. To me, maybe thanks to all these art classes and training, it’s just another form, full of its own quirks and beauty, and I shouldn’t ignore that just because of a matter of gender.
Plus, I think Jerry puts it well when he talks about being attracted not really to the men in a scene, but to the eroticism of the scene as a whole. This is what I mean about physicality, a lot of people can’t seem to see past what their eyes show them, when really if you remove the gender the exact same experiences and emotions of occurring. To me it’s that raw feeling that gets me into something, not really the figures involved. In fact I think that may be why I tend to not enjoy blowjob pictures so much, as typically only one face and thus one “mind” is involved, making it much more mechanical instead of being something you can really feel.
Anyways I’m not really sure how to word how I feel, just some rambling about the inconsequentiality of gender and the difference between smut and erotica.
Other than Pyro, I’ve always had issues with Scout, for pairing off shenanigans that is. And I think I’ve realized why.
The Scout is one of the strongest personalities on the team; definitely not one of the strongest combatants, but when it comes to attitude he’s basically number one. And I’ve been having a hard time reconciling this with any sort of romantic or non pairings. I thought it was just stereotypes setting in: gay guys can’t be tough assholes, that sort of thing. And maybe it is partially that. But I think it’s something else, too.
Even though Scout claims he’s tough, when it comes to respect I can’t really see anyone on the team backing him up, or paling around with him. Whereas the other have almost natural pairings or at least someone they could have a rivalry with (and non-conners love that) Scout’s pretty much always on his own. Kind of sad really, since it seems he’s been that way since he was a kid. He isolates himself behind a bloated ego and speed. Everyone else seems like they could at least be buddies, be it the drinking or the butt kind. Plus, it often seems more like everyone else is peers, while Scout is still sitting at the kids’ table. Hell, some of the stuff I’ve seen with him almost borders on pedophilia if the artist gets any of the “canon” porportions off.
I feel a little bad saying it, but as good as some of this art is, I mentally can’t stand a lot of Scout slash since it almost inevitably forces him into some (headcanon-speaking) OoC position. Often he ends up going from the smack-talking punk to the timid, inexperienced teen. Which I’m sure he could very well be, deep down inside, but even then, I don’t see anyone luring it out of him. Even when he’s in pain he can’t shut up about how bad it hurts; how exactly did a teammate get him to? This goes back to that whole respect thing; the other members may not like each other, but they’re all either smart enough, strong enough, or skilled enough to be able to cow each other into submission if need be. I really just can’t see Scout doing that to pretty much anyone, without their consent of course, and only then. So even when he’s on top it’s only ‘cuz they say so.
I haven’t looked into it much, but this is why I tend to really like the stuff Humon did with Scout. Relatively in-character while maintaining the porny status quo. I know a bunch of people have their little TF2 OCs and they can do whatever they want with them, but I tend to read the characters as a unit, like “all Medics are like X,” can’t really help it until I’m proven wrong by impressive creativity.
So, I don’t know. There’s my mini-essay on why Scout porn is always just a little more difficult for me to swallow.